2013 has been a difficult year for me. It has been a year filled with heartbreak and endless questions. I thought being bullied in high school was difficult, but that nearly pales in comparison to how ill I have felt after being repeatedly put down by someone I loved. I always imagined that when two people love each other anything can be resolved, but this year showed me that sadly that isn’t the case. For my sanity’s sake I finally realized that taking care of myself had to come first. People say that time will eventually fix things, but this year has felt like a never ending waiting game.
Despite my emotional hardships I have managed to make learning lessons out of them. I have first and foremost learned that my own self worth cannot be defined by another person, and neither can my happiness. I’ve learned to keep working towards what I want even when obstacles that seem nearly impossible to tackle get in the way. And last I’ve learned to appreciate those around me who will always love and care for me, no matter what mistakes I might make.
To some it seems kind of strange that I am so close with my family, but I can’t help that I’m so fortunate to have people around me that are so caring and loving. My parents and even my grandparents are like best friends to me. I’ve also been lucky to grow closer to friends who have been there with me through my struggles this year. My friend Genevieve never ceased to be there for me, burritos and other snacks in hand ready to listen to my rambles. My best friend Cory always responded to my messages and texts even when he was 11 hours ahead living in Moscow. So despite my “loss” this year I have so many other people to be thankful for.
2014 is going to difficult I’m sure, but it’s also bound to be incredible. I’m spending four months living in Europe, the summer in New York City and I finish my last semester of college in the fall. I don’t have many resolutions for the new year other than to try and learn from whatever difficulties may come and continue to appreciate those around me.
One last thing, thank you again for all of your support this year on my blog. This is a hobby I get so much joy out of and without you it wouldn’t continue to function as it does.
So thank you.
What are you looking forward to or hoping to resolve in the new year?